Just around the corner
I got asked for directions four times during my walks the past week. That's odd. So, I do look the part of an Ortigas girl, don't I? Either that... Or I look like a barangay tanod, or worse, a pick-up girl. Pffft.
I'm not good with words
I sit here, staring at my monitor and I realize I simply cannot put into a post all these emotions that my mind and heart have been immersed in ever since your name shed light to my world. I type and backspace the perfect rhyme to describe and capture how I feel when I think of having you in my life. All efforts are in vain and yet I feel not a hint of frustration. I am never so lost for words and I admit that I cannot truly express the abstract that is us. No adjective can precisely define the beauty and depth of these overwhelming feelings that it is absurd to even try. I now understand how you mean when you fall silent everytime I demand you to explain yourself. Feeling these is fulfilling enough and speaking of it would just spoil everything. I can only hope that by some cosmic force, how I feel flows through to you with our every gaze and touch. I feel your eyes on me whenever I'm not looking and I can't imagine anything that would make me feel more beautiful and adored. I feel your hand in mine and I can't imagine anything that would make me feel more secure and comforted. You're the only other person that makes me feel glad I am me.
I guess all I'm trying to say is contained in the three words we so often say. I know you already know. ♥
Boyfriend's Manual to Me
1.
Don't lie. ever. Make that ever ever ever. I don't give a crap about what you do to, for or with him or her. All that matters is that you don't make a fool out of me. Truth and honesty weighs tons for me. And I can get very stubborn in regaining trust. Paranoia is a huge chunk of my negativity. And
the worst thing about being lied to is knowing I wasn't worth the truth. Hell, I know my worth.
2.
Constantly report your whereabouts. Not telling is as bad as lying. I'm a veeery lenient girlfriend. I don't nag... I don't keep you from doing or going whatever. All I ask for is that I'm not in the dark about what's been happening to you. Let's share our lives.
Omission is betrayal. How do you think would it make me feel if I were the last person to know when you're found dead in a ditch somewhere. And I hate missing you. It scares me that someday, I won't miss you anymore and that'd be the end of us.
2.
Surprise me. It doesn't matter if it's something grand like a hotel room filled with rose petals or something simple like a kiss on my hair. I'm not materialistic when it comes to gifts. Yes, I love gifts, who doesn't... but it's the thought that truly counts. I'm a very sentimental person and kudos if you constantly tickle my sentimentality.
3.
Make me laugh. I've been in love with Vic Sotto ever since I knew how being in love feels like for the simple reason that he's the most genuinely effortlessly funny guy I've ever known. I'd marry him in a heartbeat. Haha.
4.
Laugh with me. I do have a sick sarcastic sense of humor when I'm not being corny. But it makes me feel special when my wit is appreciated. Laugh with me and I'm yours forever.
5.
Don't always let me win. If you're always gonna let me win just to avoid an argument or simply because you don't wanna take the effort to show me I'm wrong, you're practically letting me go. I've an annoyingly strong personality and if you can't deal with that, you're not gonna survive at my side for the rest of our lives. Believe me... I've seen it happen with my parents. I do always want to win but only after some challenge. There's no satisfaction in a victory by default.
6.
Remember the details. Mostly dates, places and names. These are the building blocks of our commitment. These are what strings us together. Forgetting these shows you're not paying attention and you're not giving value to what we are and what have. That would hurt. Again, I'm a sentimental person. eh.
7.
Appreciate me. That means tell me I look nice after I've showered, set my hair & painted my face for two hours for our date and say what I cooked is yummy although it's just sauteed corned beef. I do special extraordinary things only for someone I love and it's up to you to recognize my initiative. It's not that I have to do it... I do want to and it'd be nice for you to encourage me to do the next special extraordinary thing.
8.
Listen and talk. Talk and talk is not just talk... Being there is half the walk... If you wanna stay with me, you gotta do the talk and talk. Period.
